Had Coffee

I am mostly getting polite friend vibes from the crush.

As for my feelings toward her, I am unsure. Once again, she seems to be everything that 12-year-old me would be after. But past me had not traveled, had not been exposed to so many people and cultures, and had not thrown quite so many hard questions at the faith that carried him.

She is like a fictional something that somehow survived years of change. Rather than grappling with difficult things to improve herself, did she only stick with the largely familiar?

I honestly have not spoken so much Christianese in a long time; it was both refreshing and frustrating.

Her moving away and me trying to get back into ministry stuff will probably be good things.