Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Turn Your Brain Off

On this last mission trip, I noted the fulfillment of a particular longing that I had not noticed before. Guys (and some ladies, apparently) are always trying to turn their brains off, to keep themselves from thinking. This can be done through a variety of means, video games being a big one. I realized part of the way through the trip that at no point during our days there was I trying to quiet down my brain, to shut it up.

The thing is, it all simplifies. You leave for the trip as prepared as you're going to be. When you get there, you have what you have, and that's that. Your task is simply to spread the gospel and better the lives of the people there. No drama, no issues, nothing else. What's right and wrong is white and black, and though your theology may not be perfect, that won't get in the way of anything.

It should be said that the lack of need to slow your brain's roll also comes from the fact that you are exhausted and hungry at every moment while also striving to present yourself in a way befitting Christ.

Monday, July 29, 2013

Mission Trip to Colombia/Brazil/Peru

I went to the Amazon River all last week, not counting two days of travel time. I learned a lot. Like, several, minimum. Home base, where we spent a very short amount of our time, was in Leticia, Colombia. It is a port border town, from which you can easily reach Brazil and Peru in a matter of minutes. We went on a boat for an hour and a half (first stamping out of Colombia and into Peru) down the Amazon River, then had to switch to a smaller canoe-like vessel with very low, easily floodable sides due to the low waters. It had a special native name, but like most words, it went over my head and into the rainforest canopy. We spent half an hour on this smaller boats, with the pilots of these crafts using engines with propellors in a way that resembled weed-eaters (but with stronger propellors). The water levels were indeed low when we arrived, with the dock missing many planks as well. Many a precarious leap was made across these gaps while also carrying very heavy medical, camping, and staying-alive supplies with us. It was at least a quarter-mile journey from the boats to the church in which we pitched our tents (above ground and with a roof means less chance for snakes and bugs to snuggle close). Between the heat and humidity, then heavy downpours, then heat and humidity again, followed by colder temperatures than the ministry coordinator had ever experienced there, bodies were tested. The first day, I had to take an hour away from everything to just get my bloodsugar up, 'cause bruthah was a'tremblin'. I ate everything in sight and drank Gatorade followed by water. After that, I was able to keep up for the rest of the week.

Fish, rice, and chicken were our diet, along with tomatoes and cucumbers and carrots chopped up into what the local missionaries called "salad". I avoid fish and tomatoes like the plague, but on mission trips, I like everything because that is how you do mission trips. I get to be picky in the States, but nowhere else.

Two missionaries were there from the University of Arkansas, just forty minutes from where I went to school. Since they were some of the few English-speaking people, we got along well, despite the fact that they considered Siloam Springs to be "a bump in the road on the way to Oklahoma." There was also a team of 20 people, including a doctor and some dentists, who were from Cali, Colombia, and we all got along well, though their English was rather broken.

While there, I helped with triage, taking vitals with a friend who helped and translated, and got to observe when anything especially notable came in to see the doctor.

On this note, I should add something. Having recently taken my MCAT (three weeks previous), my confidence was shot. I had felt capable and knowledgeable when I graduated, but studying for that test and taking all those practice tests made me feel like I knew nothing. This trip really helped. I am built for mission trips, and they satisfy something within me. I feel like I can understand when Paul talked about being poured out like a drink offering. I was going to shadow a doctor, Dr. Lopez, during the Christmas holidays, but that fell through. Instead, I ended up shadowing him on this trip. One patient, the village pastor, came in after having hit his head on something sharp. He had a laceration to his head that required sutures. Watching Dr. Lopez treat it was like a sort of closure for me after having seen such a procedure done improperly a year before. He cleaned the wound, then applied lidocaine to the wound before stitching, and added a triple-antibiotic (Neosporin) at the end and told him to keep it covered.
Another young niƱo (THAT MEANS BOY) came in with an abscess in his axillary (armpit) region. This happened as we were supposed to be delivering bags and things to the boat to leave. Dr. Lopez drained it, and it looked similar to a pimple popping, except that there was a lot more persuasion involved; that thing would not go with a single pop. After flushing it out with saline solution, he applied a triple-antibiotic and it was done.
And all of these procedures are on video.

The services at night were fun, but only as fun as you made them. One of our missionary friends there, Dani, told us that they would play the same beat for hours on end, only changing the lyrics. Sure enough, that keyboardist came out and rocked the house, occasionally throwing in some drumrolls. I ironically loved it, and made a bigger deal out of it every day, especially since we had two capable guitarists and even more singers who could have played each night, but were not selected for such a privilege. Many people were saved during our time of ministry, though I couldn't give you a count for a variety of reasons, the primary one being that I couldn't tell what the alter calls were for, specifically, since they were in Spanish or sometimes in the local language of Ticuma.

We bathed in the Amazon River but despite the fact that we desired to fish there, the pastor warned us that fishing at night would be risky, since there were apparently serpents large enough to capsize our boats and eat us then and there.

Fortunately, we got to see some of the wildlife of the jungle. There were some monkeys and parakeets and parrots, and I also got to hold a black caiman (Amazonian alligator), hang out with an ocelot, hold a mata mata (ugliest turtle ever), and hold a sloth. Now I had seen a lot of memes and videos with sloths and couldn't see what all the fuss was about, but holding one...they are the greatest creatures. They're everything. That is all.

During our day off, I successfully applied a semi-permanent tattoo made from the inner juices of the genipa americana fruit, which the locals called "wito" (pronounced like the French word for 8, huit, but with an "-o" on the end). I also got into a scooter accident a block and a half from where I rented the scooter, and then decided that I really had no business riding a scooter, so I let someone else borrow it for the rest of the day. I got scraped up, but all wounds were superficial, leaving me with cool pictures and a quick recovery.

That's our trip in a quick summary. I'll hopefully probably maybe post more soon, and have a video edited, depending on when I get footage from other people.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Prepping

I'm preparing to go on this mission trip to Columbia/Peru/Brazil/the Amazonas (we technically end up in a small village in Peru, but we hit up all three countries on the way).

What am I expecting out of this? What do I expect to give, to receive? How am I preparing?

My most prevailing expectation is that I will be challenged. On the practical side, we're going to be camping the whole time, sleeping in tents. I'm not much of an outdoorsy person, and haven't really gone camping in around ten years. However, I have purchased the most bug-repellant things that ever were and am looking out windows more frequently in order to get used to this "nature" thing.

In terms of spiritual stuff, I've been working at purifying my mind, at letting The Lord refine me since I've gotten back from Arkansas. I've begun to see people in a different light, seeing in their eyes the eyes of those people I've seen on mission trips in the past, people who cannot seem to get out of the rut they're in, and have therefore allowed themselves to stop growing. I want to stop that. I can't stand seeing people without hope, without a reason to reach for more. That hope lay within Christ, in the redemptive power of His forgiveness. And I forget the gravity of that pretty often.

Fortunately, mission trips are a great way to see that hope embodied, see it at work within a people and culture. And I suppose that that is really my expectation for the trip. To see the embodiment of the hope of Christ rest upon people in a powerful way.

I'm excited to be out from under the belief systems of JBU, to practice working in spiritual gifts again. To pray for hands of healing and maybe actually believe that God could work through me in that. I want to be tested, to be pushed, to be challenged.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Kinda Feels Busy

Life feels busy. I have yet to complete some secondary med school applications. I am doing an unpaid internship and doing a phlebotomy (drawing blood) course online (in order to start getting paid for the work I'm doing). I'm preparing for a medical mission trip to Brazil/Columbia/Peru (we'll be right on the border between them). I have a JBU alumni from California staying at my house for the next two weeks. I am trying to be a missionary to my family as well and help out where and when I can. Particularly since I discovered that at least one of my siblings has fallen away from the faith. I don't want to hang out with most of my old friends because, to be honest, they're kinda in bad places of dissatisfaction and being stagnant, and I'm afraid of being pulled into that. And in the background of all of it, I'm still waiting until August 5th, when my MCAT scores go up and I get to see what my future holds.

It feels like it won't stop, like I'm busy without getting much done, and most things feel like a learning curve. I'm not frustrated. Overwhelmed would be a better term, though as I said before, it's like being overwhelmed in a vacant space, 'cause it's not like there's one particularly thing pressing at me.

I'm probably fine and it's almost the weekend. Tata, brahs and babes.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Overwhelmed In A Vacant Space

MCAT has been completed as of Tuesday. Since then, I have spent a day at the neurologist's office, where I will hopefully have a job soon, then a day at the lakehouse for the 4th of July with family, and drove to Arkansas on the 5th to become refreshed by the company of friends.

And having frank conversations with the friend I have been closest to while I was attending JBU, it was refreshing to hear echoes of my own thoughts and struggles. He opened up with asking how I could tell what God wants me to do. I gave a long-winded answer, essentially telling him that whenever I've felt like God is speaking to me, I've held onto that, and though I've been open to Him changing His plans. As long as you're trying to obey God, He tends to push you in the right direction.

Now, I'm in an exciting/horrible time period. I have a month until I find out how I did on the MCAT. Until then, I'm just here, trying to plan for anything. If I don't make it in this year, if my scores are just awful, I'll have more freedoms in some ways, but also less in other ways. I can work for longer and gain more experience, possibly travel more (though rumor has it that full-time jobs don't let you do that as much as you want), and read and write and all the things I love. But that will be another year (or however much time) until I can help those people. I can be content wherever God has me, but it does weigh on me strongly sometimes. Every moment here is a moment they don't receive healing.

There are other things I'd love to do too, of course. Become a mascot for another sport, or work at Disney World, or work as a full-time missionary, or just go back-packing through Europe, through Asia, through South America.

It's the idea of having all sorts of opportunities, being intensely aware of my weaknesses where I'm at, and questioning what I should be doing, both for my own happiness and to do and be better in general. It's being overwhelmed in a vacant space.

Monday, July 1, 2013

10 Hours Away

I need to go to sleep soon... Only ten hours till I take the MCAT. I'm just ready to give it up to God now. Hopefully I'll feel the same after the test.

Just have some formulas to try to memorize, then I'll be taking the most intense test of my life thus far. I know because I've taken practice tests, and they are the worst.

My dad's advice comes from a similar time in his life when he took the CPA exam. Just pay for parking (his car was towed while he took his test) and do what Gideon did: trust in The Lord, 'cause it's His battle now.

Just do my best. That's all. Most of the test is a matter of quickly analyzing given material and interpreting it using critical thinking.

I think I need to practice some equations and go to sleep. Anything else at this point is probably for dumb-dumbs.

Pray to Jesus for me, guys. It's all His anyway, but He could pleasantly surprise me if He'd like.