I wasn't quite sure about it, but what the hey!

I'm gonna try to post my xanga entries on here. The stuff is dangerously personal, but everyone I know on here is a personal friend.

I've heard too many people my age and younger say, "I'm finally done. I never have to go back to that school again," and I'm kinda getting tired of not participating in that feeling. Since I was a half-senior, I had the satisfaction of having fooled everyone into thinking that I was a full senior, but that satisfaction wasn't enough to cover the disappointment that fell on me when I realized that another year had gone by with me still not graduated. But I'm right where God wants me, so I'm okay. So yes, Finals week was tough, but school is out (for now), and I've been hitting up graduation parties right and left.

The Stache Bash was on Saturday, http://projectnemeth.com/blog/?p=351#comments. Also, I had my 18th birthday party on Monday at the lakehouse, which was plenty of fun. I got $45 of iTunes money, and Cameron gave me like seven or eight cds (all on data cd except for one), so I should be able to stay entertained for much of my four 8 1/2 hour flights to and from Kenya. Speaking of which, I also talked to Mrs. Nickel about Kenya, and she, having been to the exact same places five or six times each, knew specifically what games we should play, and, more importantly, what I needed to try to teach in my lessons (by the way, I need to make some lessons soon). On Wednesday, I was mowing the lawn, and I accidentally killed two baby bunnies. But I've seen plenty running around since, so I feel okay. Anyway, I did offering that night at Paradigm, and I told about how I had been waiting for God to pull through about the children's ministry, and how he had done it on Monday through Mrs. Nickel. As usual, it came out really funny, but I'm not sure if I tied it into the whole "offering" idea very well. To redeem this, Pastor Jaycee preached. Enough said (but I'll still elaborate). He preached on how we needed to forgive for the hurts that people leaving/moving on from our youth group have caused us, and had people come up who hadn't been stepping up as leaders like they were supposed to (this was voluntary, of course). Then he told Paradigm as a whole that breakthrough is coming, and that everyone needed to pray for the breakthrough. I can't wait.

I went out to eat afterwards with Alexandra, her friends (like five of them), and Rachel Chapman, whom I was/am trying to get to know. I discovered that she is extremely sarcastic, and, so far, has the impression that I hang around my family all the time, which is really ironically funny, 'cause I'm always with friends. The next day, my dad woke me up by yelling at me for not finishing the lawn the day before, and told me that he had turned off my texting. I told him that I had fully intended to get up and mow the lawn that very day, and, after doing so, later convinced him to turn my texting back on. BAM! At 7:00, I went to a prayer meeting for the Kenya team, and we prayed whatever the Spirit got us to pray. Like halfway through, though, Jason, our leader, said that he had words for us, and he told me that I need to make sure that my joy doesn't keep my heart from getting melted for the people, 'cause I'm gonna be speaking into peoples' lives, and I'll need to be able to have my heart open. That was good to know.

Today, I got up and put on a green shirt, my Uncommon shirt, from YFN. I don't often wear green, 'cause I don't like to wear t-shirts as much, but I love green. I went to get my drivers license renewed ($24 to do it! HOW PREPOSTEROUS!), get Kenya missions trip papers notarized, dropped off said notarized papers, and then went to Rachel Chapman's graduation party. She was really happy that I came, since I really barely know her, but I'm out to show that I wanna be her friend. I forgot to mention earlier, I also entrusted my two rings to her while I'm on my trip (my "LONDON" backwards ring and my LS pattern ring), so that proves even more trust. That was mostly me sitting around listening to other peoples' conversations until Anthony came, followed hours later by Lance and Lauren. Then I went to pick Cassie up, talk with her about how she needs to get right with God (SERIOUSLY), then to Jenny Howard and Lauren Cantrell's graduation party. I was there for half an hour to an hour, where I talked to JRush, who just got back from the Philippines, then got a call from Katie. I talked with her for a few hours, then came back to a mostly-ended party. It's Cameron's last day before he goes to YFN, so it'll be weird without him making plans for eating after church, but that's life. Pastor Nick pressured me into working for some food drive thing at 6:30 AM tomorrow/today, so I should go to sleep, 'cause it's 2:00 AM now. Yeah, this isn't boding well...

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But hopefully I will find love here, which is why most people get bloggers, right? Katie gets credit for me making this, so you can all congratulate her on that. By "you all", of course, I mean all of my many, glorious friends who take the time to find me on here (since I'm much too lazy to find you myself), and ask me to be your friend. Ah, the glories of life.