Who I Want To Be

I think I've figured out the kind of person I want to be, at least with regard to my personality. According to my freshman Intro to Psychology course, my personality isn't solid till my mid-twenties. I'm not too far away from that (weird, right?).

In high school and junior high, I tended to hang out with the more quiet people. These were the ones that you could always tell there was more to than initially meets the eye. I found that I wanted to be one of those types, one whose words carried weight because I only said what I had spent time mulling over and reflecting upon. In other words, I wanted to speak with wisdom, the words I speak bearing enormous weight and having great effect.

This has only been brought to mind lately because once again, I really liked how the main character in the Wheel of Time series turned out. Everywhere he went, things were blessed (in the books, grass would turn green and spoiled food would turn fresh) but he was also simple in speech and manner, not trying to impress people with himself. He knew what he knew, and what he had to do, and he listened and cared for people as he went about it. Everyone and everything around him was blessed.

P.S. I imagine that Jesus had a personality like that.

I had also never appreciated free will until I read the series. The series is not a Christian one. The author made it a point to emphasize that. Instead it focuses a lot on the idea of reincarnation, that everything is bound to repeat itself. This drove Rand (the main character) to frustration. Similarly, I get frustrated with this life we are forced to live and the sinful nature we have to battle. I have often wished that God would simply take over and live my life for me. I'd give it freely for Him to do so. Instead, He has me live it, and Rand's experience in the book helps me to understand why. He asks why we fight, why we suffer, why we go through so much if everything is doomed to be repeated. And the answer was simple. We do it so we can have another chance to love.

Sorry, the series was just so freaking good that I keep learning lessons from it.