Less Than Six Weeks

I'm less than six weeks from the date upon which I hope to schedule my USMLE STEP 1 exam. The equation that people have posted online which seems to correlate most with peoples' actual score is one's practice test score average x 2.4 + 84. Given that my average included scores from during the anxiety-laden election season last year, I tend to think that my average is higher than what that showed (56), but even if it is precisely what I have had, I am still safely above passing. My current average (after having completed all of UWorld, which means that I am repeating the 2500-ish questions) is 63, a little above listed average within the question bank.

So I study with some hope, which is a weird thing with which to study. It also helps that I am planning a road trip to NYC, then to Portland (after stopping in Chicago and Milwaukee), down through San Francisco and Napa Valley, hopping through LA, then stopping over to Denver before I go home for a wedding in November. If things go nicely, I will start this trip a day or two after my exam.

Hoping to see a few crushes on this trip, and planning some photo shoots as well. One crush has responded in the affirmative, while the other remains unresponsive (given how aggressively I instinctively tried to give a terrible first impression, this is not the most shocking development).

All that is left to do is keep trying to study and also (importantly) to remember to include days off. Both of these things are essential.

If I am being honest, a lot of whatever self-esteem I have acquired in the dating world has been in relation to the fact that I plan on being a doctor. So I need to do well enough to actually move on with those plans, because a guy who dropped out of med school is considerably less attractive than a doctor. Anyway, that's probably a blog post for a night when I feel less secure in myself.