Today is the last major day of studying. I've scored high and low on these practice tests, which leads me to believe that the upcoming exam could go either way. I had to take yesterday off (except for reviewing and taking an exam) because I just could not take any more. Burnout is real. I have more to finish than I'm likely to do, but I suppose that this is the point at which I need to give it up to God.
Passing this exam this time would be great. There's a wedding I want to attend and some life enjoyment that I would like to squeeze in between study sessions, which is something I remain terrible at doing. But if I pass, I am also not guaranteed a place to myself to study. If I fail, I go back to the island, where I will be forced to live with few distractions. I despise that place, but if it's what God has for me, so be it. This whole thing (my life) is His anyway. I just hope that He will have mercy on me and allow me to pass this exam so that I can enjoy life a little more in between my studies.
Or maybe I should just transfer to another school. I know the other schools are supposed to be worse for placement, but my school sucks SO BAD.
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